hold on to me, just a little while

i tend to overthink around this time then i end up not getting any type of sleep cause it's thought after thought after thought. you catch my drift, anyways .. i just had a rude awakening. i mean i'm content, with everything. i couldn't be happier BUT i have completely forsaken my GOD. i realized i do this alot, i know i'm not the only one but when things are rough .. everyday, every minute, every single step you take, you talk to Him " Lord see me through, work this situation out, i need you Lord " then soon as everything is calm, you get what you're asking for you're like " deuces, it's been real " till the next time you need Him offcourse. i realized i've turned into one of those people. no i'm not proud, i hate it. i fall short all the time, the great thing is that He is full of mercy. i need to get back to my first love and stay there. where are you in life right now ? do you just talk to your God when you need him to do something ? hmm ponder.